Every woman Needs.

Every woman needs one man in her life who is
Strong and responsible.
Given this security,
She can proceed to do
what she really wants to do
- FALL IN LOVE WITH ONE MEN <3

What's Up?

It's been a long time since I last post here :)

What's new with me? Really nothing Am I *sigh*
Just got all busy with my school stuffs.

And there this one..
I had a biggie confusion about my boyfriend he's kinda Sweet but Cold Thing.
I dunno if he has a big problem or there's a problem between us that needed to fix up.
A lot has change again, like I'm the one who always text him everytime I wake up in the morning, His text were bit short unlike before, Often Iloveyou's, Shortcut ILOVEYOU being ILOVEU already :( He doesn't text me up over and over again. It's just like this - Pag ako hindi nagreply hindi na siya magteteks. Hindi katulad dati. pag ako hindi nagreply grabee sumsabog inbox ko sa text niya. Parang alam mo yun hindi na niya ko iniintindi wala na ring pakielam pag matripan lang niya ko kausapin tsaka niya ko iteteks. Wala na kong EFFORTS na nakikita.Nahihirapan na nga ko eh. feeling ko may iba na siyang mahal o ibang special na tao na nakakateks. Hindi ko alam kung ano na :( Parang ang hirap hirap sa part ko kasi ang layo namin noo :( Monthsary pa naman namen ngayon. Seven kasee.

Lord, please give me sign. Sorry sa mga pagsisinungaling ko. It's white lies para rin naman po sa ikakabuti ko. para hindi isipin ng ibang tao at hindi na ko mbrain - wash na niloloko lang ako ni Nico. :(((((((((((

NAHIHIRAPAN NA PO AKO SOBRA :(
Hinahanap hanap ko talaga kung ano yung feeling na maging girlfriend :(

SORRY FOR EVERYTHING :(

HELL-O! TWENTY TEN <3

Yeah, Twenty O Nine is noe OVER (:
And so HELLO na kay TWENTY TEN <3

Ayun, Let's Flashback A bit marami nangyari sa 2009 na hindi ko makakalimutan (:
Lalo na ng makilala ko NiCO yung boyfriend ko ngayon siya pa ren naman eh :DD
Kaso malaki laki na rin ang kasalanan ko sa kanya katulad ng pagtu-2time hindi ko naman sinasadya nakukulangan lang siguro ako minsan sa mga oras na wala siya.
Nagsisi naman ako noo pag ginagawa ko yun hanggang ngayon. *sigh*

Mas mahirap ngayon wala akong PHONE. Badtrip. Kasama ko siya lumangoy sa pool.
Iniisip ko lang yung mga message niya bukod tanging niya. *laughs*
I MISS HIM SO MUCH :(( Yun na nga lang ang way para magkausap kame nawala pa.
Sana wag dumating yung time na iwanan na niya ko. HINDI KO KAYA EH. Sa kanya lang kase ako kumukuha ng lakas ng loob eh. Siya lang pinakatinetreasure ko sa lahat. *sigh* WAG LANG TALAGA SIYA MAWALA OKAY NA KO. KAHIT NA NANGTU-2TIME AKO! SORRY PO NG SOBRA.

Pero alam mo may gusto talaga ako eh. Hindi ko pa ren siya makalimutan si ALOT *sigh* Grabee kase yung EX ko eh Bitter eh. Ayan tuloy napurnada yung Love Story namen. HAHA! Hayaan na nga. Pero alam mo MISS NA MISS KO NA YUN :) Yung mga time na magkateks kame magkausap kase lagi niya ko napapasaya at napapatawa. Yung mga times na hinatid niya ko sa 5th flr. every Monday NSTP namen. *sigh* Grabe siya. :) Siguro, kung naging kami mas masaya kaso hinde eh. Aain hayaan na ulet. HAHA! Basta miss ko lang siya.

Tapos eto pa. December lang to nangyari eh. May naging boyfriend na naman ako si Jhes tsaka si RJ tapos may nakakiss pa sakin na first time ko lang nameet. Ang BAD ko noo? Pero babaguhin ko na naman yun as in pipilitin ko magbago para sa ASAWA KO. Tsaka yung mga pagsisinungaling ko dun ako magaling eh. Hindi ako nahuhuli. Yun talaga yung pinakagusto ko mabago minsan nga naisip kong mangumpisal wala namang time. Kaya nagdadasal na lang ako minsan. Nagsosorry sa tuwing nagsisinungaling ako. Hayss. Ayun. Bbreak ko na nga si Jhes para si Nico na lang talaga.

KAYA LANG.. May dumating na naman si MACKY tapos may gusto pa sakin si JHAY. KayMacky muna tayo si Macky before BI siya meaning BISEXUAL para sa mga hindi nakakaalam pero nagbago na siya. Ayun, Nililigawan niya everytime I'm with him I feel so comfortable, happy and proud as well. He's good graduate na siya may work na nga eh Call Center pa matangkad,Englishero pa nga kamo. HAHA! matangos ang ilong moreno may kabilugan ang mata pero Ok siya. Promise. Tsaka feeling ko pa naging kame PROTEKTADO ako. Ngayon pa nga lang na hindi kame feeling ko PROTECTED na ko. Pag magkasama kami lage hawak kamay o kaya nakaakbay siya sakin. Tsaka PROUD siya sakin. Everytime there's someone askin him "Who is she?" Sasagot nun "Girlfriend ko" Kahit di pa kami. Oh. diba ang taray. Si Jhay. Uhh. matagal na to may gusto sakin eh. mahal na nga ko eh. Siya naman crush ko lang. HAHA! Selos naman siya kay Macky. Niloloko nga ni Macky kung hindi naman daw ba siya mateterminate sa EXPLODE. Basta ayun.

So NGAYON. 2010 na. MAGBABAGO NA KO! SANA NGA MABAGO KO! Ibbreak ko lang si Jhes AYOS NA! Tapos hindi na ko magsisinungaling :))) I can't Promise. Kasi lage ako nagsisinungaling. :DDD Hindi naman lage madalas lang. HAHA!

There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them

GRABBED.

Here I am now.
Sitting in front of my PC.



Tryng to figure out and reflect to all the wrong things I've done in my 16th yrs in earth. *sigh*

Im such a self-centered human being! I always think of what I want, what I need, What others have that I don't have.

I never seems to be contented and happy of the life I have. For Infact I'm so privileged in almost everything.
I keep on blaming others for all the things that went wrong.

blaming others for all the things I did..

blaming others for my shortcomings...

blaming others for all of my insecurities..


Whoa! I hate to admit it but I am such a loser for not being thankful and proud of what GOD have given me. *cry*







but Hey! you might got the wrong impression on me.
I'm not as bad as you think of, this is just the dark side of, about my good side, I'll leave it to you people...



judge me not by the way you see me..

judge me not by the way i act on a certain situation..

judge me not by the things you've just heard..





judge me by the way i talk to you..

I just feel sad when I read this one grabbed by a Friend of Mine in Frindster.

STARTING TO LET GO.

Boom. I'm now starting to let go of Lordie.
I didn't want to be a #2. =.=
In fact of his 2days absence no teks, no chats, or any other things that make us to communicate.
And I decided to let go of him. And focus to my husband NiCO.
I'm gonna miss Lordie really. :(
Just take care ~
Love your girlfriend with all your heart. Alright? (:
I'm gonna be happy just for you & You should be happy for me too. ^^

SOON IT WILL COME FROM THE TIME IT WILL BE GIVEN...

BLAAA. I'm talking to NO ONE! Heehaa! :))))))

HARDEST THING TO DO. Ö

`Love SECRETLY.

`Realize that the person who helped you to step out of a painful experience only lead you to a more painful one.

`Keep quiet when you have loads of things to say.

`Say no when you means YES and say yes when you mean NO.

`Hold back your emotions.

`Think of a reason why good things never last.

`Leave when you want to stay.

`Laugh when you feel like crying.

`Miss someone who is just around.

PASSED BIRTHDAY.

And so what happened this passed months including my birthday?
Before the 1st semestral break nakipag-break na ko kay Kevin.
Hindi ko na talaga siya mahal eh? I fell inlove with her band mate na matagal ko ng crush. Take note crush din ako nung band mate niya na si Lordie. Ayun, Keving regrets for all his faults na ginawa niya sakin pinilit niyang makipagbalikan kaso ayoko na talaga. Marami namang dahilan kung bakit ayaw ko na eh. Una, Si Nico mahal na mahal ko yun kahit malayo yun sakin. Pangalawa, Si Lordie na natutunan ko na talagang mahalin hanggang ngayon. Pangatlo, Tingin ko hindi niya ko kayang ipagtanggol sa payat niyang yun at ang tamad niyang mag-aral ang daming bagay na na sa kanya na nakaka-TURNOFF sa totoo lang.

Hayys, Ayun sa sobrang pagmamahal niya sakin nagkaroon tuloy ako na sama ng loob sa isang pinakamamahal ko ring kaibgan na si Edward pero nagkaayos ren naman kame agad. After nun, Okay na lahat. (: Thank God. Alam mo pinilit ko lumayo kay Lordie kaso ayaw niya mahal niya daw ako. Pero bakit ganon? Kung mahal naman niya ko bbreak niya yung gf niya diba? Hayyss, Pero di na ren naman ako umaasang magiging kame pareo naman kameng may BF/GF. Okay na sigurong ganito kame. (: Basta alam naming mahal namin ang isa't isa.

BIRTHDAY KO. <3
MASAYA na MALUNGKOT?

Masaya kase kahit papano may nagpunta at yung mga greetings sakin ng mga mahal kong kaibgan dun ako natuwa ng sobra kasi alam mo yun kahit ang layo layo mo sa kanila. Feel mo na hindi nila kinalimutan yung araw mo. (: Dun lang masaya na ko.

Malungkot para kasing ang daming kulang. :(
Unti ng pumunta sa birthday ko. Wala yung mga friends ko from Manila.
Hayysss, I miss them. T______T
9mos. na ren kame ni Nico nung birthday ko sana hindi niya ko niloloko pero tingin ko hindi naman pasalamat na ren ako dun. Malungkot lang kase binati niya lang ako sa FS sa kagipitan. SANA MAKAPAG-ARAL na siya. Sayang din pu kasi matatapos na siya. (:

Anyways, malapet na naman pasukan kaya sinipag na ko mgpost ng another entry.
Kasi mejo matatagalan ulet bago ako magkwento.
2nd semester na. (: Goodluck saken. Gagalingan ko pa para sa Lolo at Tita ko.
Lord, Guidance lang po hinihingi ko at another na mabubuting kaibigan. (:
THANK YOU PO SA MGA BLESSINGS! MAHAL KO KAYO.
Isa lang po lage ko hiling lage niyo pu alagaan si LOLO at yung iba ko pang mahal sa buhay. (: MARAMI PONG SALAMAT SA LAHAT. (:

I have no regrets in my life. I think that everything happens to you for a reason. The hard times that you go through build character, making you a much stronger person.

WE WILL MAKE IT LAST FOREVER. <3

SEVEN FEVER.♥

I GOT JUMBLED.

I dunno how to start but now my mind is quite SCRIBBLED.
Wiw. These passed few days our relationship of Nico is kindah....
Geez. I don't know. But he started not texting me though I know he have a load. Ö
Yea, I admit it I'm a fool for cheating. T__________T
Fuck. I feel very guilty so much. But Why does I've been cheating him for so long?

I think because of his less attentions, doubts, and lastly her PRESENCE.
Sometimes I feel so stupid for having someone who's too FAR AWAY from me.
I can't prevent my doubts because of his looks. Sometimes I was thinking and begging for some signs to God If he does cheating me only? Gaaad.

And now another new fault. I fell out of love on him because of another guy.
But I MISS HIM SO MUCH.
If time comes will separate us.
I will just ADMIT the FACT that were not meant for each other.
I will just THANK GOD for giving that boy as part of my life. (:
IT WILL TRULY HURT ME BUT ACCEPTANCE IS A MUST. (:

I FEEL SORRY FOR ALL MY FAULTS AND LIES